I am not shy, I am anxious I am not unmotivated, I am overwhelmed I am not unreliable, I am paralysed I am not unavailable, I am fearful I am not an introvert, I am cautious I am not scattered, I am confused I am not an emotional wreck, I am simply, a sensitive human …
I am a valid human, with or without a social media following!
As of late, my social media anxiety has worsened each day. I cannot recollect when this crippling fetish I have to self-sabotage myself began and I can’t recall the last time I felt good about this strange, yet powerful platform that allows us to share every aspect of our lives. The funny, ironic thing is …
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As I slipped into a state of being, the sky became a mirror
All morning, my backyard was beckoning me to come and relish in the glorious post-winter solstice weather. It was as if our battered, wooden double doors were indeed, the pearly gates.. but I didn’t feel deserving to go beyond them yet. I was going about my standard, procrastination chores and enduring the usual dis-jointed, mental …
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When I finally listened to my pain, out came the infamous ‘perfection’ song
I placed my laptop in front of me this afternoon, planning on writing a post about the major life shift that I have just experienced and how within one month, my whole life did a complete 360 degree flip. If I could describe it in finer detail, It would go something like this: One day, …
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Maybe these wings aren’t broken after all
If only there was a magic wand. A wand that could completely erase any old habits, deep engrained patterns, the brain-washed belief system of society, inherited pain from past lives and co-dependancies within us. Wouldn’t we all be such free-spirited, independent creatures full of endless joy and happiness? Conquering this western society one zen-master at …
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Finding Light after Tragedy
Nothing can ever prepare you for tragedy, whether it is death or a defining moment that changes the course of your life forever, there is simply nothing that can possibly prepare you for such a shock to the system. Mostly, nothing can prepare you for the severe re-percussions, array of emotions and even physical symptoms that arise …
The moment the glass shattered, perhaps my old patterns did too?
On Sunday eve, the glass shattered around my fist and splayed into a billion tiny shards on to the floorboards. I had spiralled into a split second ‘frenzy’ one could say, In which my 'anxiety' had boiled to the surface in a desperation to release and in fact, it released in a way that it never …
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The Quest For Inner Peace – Introduction
Hi, I'm Ellen. This is purely a platform to express myself freely and share snippets of memoirs and journal writings that I have poured from my soul to paper over the past years. All of these writings have all had one particular intention, one driving force and that is, a quest for inner peace. This …
